A Stay at Home Mom is… September 30, 2007
Posted by emkyubi in SAHM, family, life, moms, parent.7 comments
Someone who’s primary occupation is to take care of the Family and the home. Mostly, people think that being a SAHM is having a good life thus they don’t need to work anymore. I beg to disagree with this kind of opinion. Does this mean being a mom and a wife is not considered a work? The only work I guess which includes multitasking and it’s free of charge!
I’ve been a stay at home mom for 4 years now and I myself wasn’t a homebuddy prior to getting married. But after giving birth, I felt that there was a need for me to stay at home since nobody’s going to take care of my baby. So I did. It’s not an easy task but it’s fulfilling for me to see my child’s growth development. Her first things in life!
What is it like to be a SAHM?
When we first settled down on our own, it was as if a never ending task for me. Taking care of my daugther, at the same time doing all the household chores including cooking. I felt I am of no difference being a domestic helper:-) It’s an everyday routine!
Wakes up in the morning same time as my girl wakes up or sometimes earlier than her. The moment she is awake she will ask for milk, next I need to turn on the tv for her cartoons. While she is busy, I must take time to have my cup of coffee and start with my daily chores (sweep the floor, fix the room, clean the bathroom and etc.) while cooking for breakfast. Most moms? or should I say ALL moms I think are good in multitasking. Yes, I can do lots of things in an hour and this makes me feel I am a superwoman. haha!
Bathe my girl after breakfast and start to think of what will I be cooking for lunch and dinner. There’s 365 days in a year and we need to have breakfast, lunch and dinner. I am always cracking my head on what food will I serve my family. Do you do the same as me? I have no problem with cooking but there are times that I ran out of ideas on what else to cook with the only available ingredients left in the fridge.
What more if our child/children are sick. I have experienced not sleeping for 48 hours straight because Alexx was sick and clinging with me most of the time. The worst part is when our kids doesn’t know how to speak yet and they cannot tell us what exactly they are feeling. So heartbreaking to see them suffering in pain at the same time the house is in a great mess because our attention is focus on our sick child. How’s that dude?
I think the best thing of being a SAHM is that we are able to spend much time on our kids while they are still young, not missing every part of their growing stage and being the first one to know what achievements they have done at the end of the day. I know my experiences now is just nothing compared to those who have been a SAHM all their lives and I still have a lot of things to learn. My salute to all the SAHM in the world! You are doing a great job.
Never a partner…I am just a Wife!!! September 26, 2007
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It’s never been easy for me to ask things from you most especially on my personal wants. I always have to pass through a needle hole everytime. I SELDOM ASK WHAT I REALLY REALLY WANT! And I definitely know how to differentiate my “needs” from my “wants”. There are times that we only want things just for the purpose of wanting and there should never be a follow up question on whether we really want it or it will just become worthless subsequently.
Didn’t you know that everytime I ask things from you, I ward off that shy kind of feeling? For the reason that, I am not used to ask anything from anybody just to satisfy my wants in life. Yes, it’s only my wants…so what? It’s worthless to further explicate things to you because everytime I do so, I lose my hope on fulfilling my desire. Therefore, I tend to put aside my wants for the meantime. But that doesn’t mean I don’t feel detrimental about it.
You always make me feel less important to you. All my rantings and whinings were invaluable. Maybe I don’t deserve your listening ears. You should have known me when I poured out all this sentiments to you long time ago. But no matter what I do, be it in a placid moment or in a chaotic environment, you never cared to listen. You simply refuse to pay attention. What more do I have to say? NOTHING I guess. I always end up crying my heart out just to get rid of my bad feelings.
Does my tears give you happiness? From the very start, this tears never stop from falling, yet you still remain the same. This lines may be funny for you but it applies to me very much…Afterall “I WAS NEVER YOUR PARTNER, I AM JUST A WIFE!”
Alexx and her silly mind September 25, 2007
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Just as we were about to sleep lastnight, we had our usual conversation with Alexx. Some things about what she learned during the day and what she did the whole day. It’s lights off already and she faced me then sang “twinkle, twinkle little star” Her dad clapped at her and let her sing again…she sang but it wasn’t that nice as she did with the first. Mike lose his interest and so frankly said, ”ok let’s sleep now.” Alexx went on with her singing and her dad remembered about the robot actions Alexx usually does when she wants to get attention from us. “Robot! robot!” with her hands moving like a robot. Then Mike remembered the show ASAP last sunday in TFC. Celebrities were dancing like robots.
Mike asked Alexx on where she learned how to act like a robot…we got a straight answer “from the worm” (wha!) Where is the worm?” Mike asked, “in the ground, no! it’s in my teeth and it’s tiny like this (her fingers showed a tiny sign)” Alexx replied while chuckling. The three of us laugh with what she replied. So silly of her to say that, teasing us everytime. She actually knows a lot of things now. What more when she goes to school?
I am impress with wordpress!?! September 24, 2007
Posted by emkyubi in Ideas.2 comments
The new beginning for my new blogging space and here I am writing down my thoughts in wordpress. I was greatly influenced by it’s features and what it can eventually offer me in the future. A much simple template and a more decent presentation made me say…”This is it!” No more messy sidebars with lots of slideshows and faces to reveal. I think I have offered much of myself in blogger and now it is time for me to be…somehow a little discreet??? Photographs & memories will be place in the PAGE section. This is one thing I like here (the PAGE section).
I am back to zero again, making my brain cells to deplete. At first, I thought I will not push thru with my migration and just be contented with where I am. Oh yeah…a damn shit happens in life sometimes that’s why I am here now for good. I think I must learn to be contented with just simple designs yet has an elegant look rather than modifying things so often and messed up the whole of it. It’s heartbreaking you know!!! 
I think I found a place which resembles of what I truly am. My world…your world…my deepest feelings…words that comes from within speaks of “not only myself”…I included you in my blog title “YOUR WORLD” means I can say whatever I want to say and you don’t have the right to “contest” my opinions. (wow, so fierce!) Your comments will be highly appreciated but I have an option to moderate it, if I feel it is of no good to share with others.
WordPress, impressed me so much but I won’t deny that I also have little disappointments here.
1. I don’t have my Cbox – i tried several times to put it in my text widget but it doesn’t show or maybe I just don’t know how to put it properly. (can someone please help me with this? I want my cbox!!!) I’m losing my patience!!!
2. I can’t post my advertlets & nuffnang too (wordpress you have nothing to do with this) I need to register my new URL to them but I am lazy to do that now. Maybe I will also bade my goodbye to advertlets & nuffnang. Anyway, I have my Financer whenever I am in need. haha!!
3. I can’t simply modify my CSS. If I do, I need to purchase it from wordpress. (I need to be contented I guess!)
4. Whenever I change template to another I need to redo my widgets on where I should place them. (Again I MUST be contented)
5. I need to read everything in FAQ to get the ball rolling. (there are some things I don’t understand (making me blur) can someone please give me a free tutorial? hehehe)
For those who were asking, why I ignored you this past few days, I am sorry, I am just busy and my silence doesn’t mean anything. Never in my vocabulary to ignore people who needs me and my listening ears. Now I am back!!!
What are you saying…Alexx??? September 22, 2007
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Not so long ago, Alexx is still a cutie little baby I cuddle around and play with. Now she is still cute but WOW! I can feel that she is really growing up that fast. She reasons out on her own comfort and she can say whatever she wants to say. It gives me a shocking feeling at times when she says things like…”oh my, what the heck is that?”, “mommy that’s amazing”. I wonder, does she really know what she’s talking about, huh? 
Mike and I will just smile and look at each other everytime we hear Alexx say something new to our ears. She talks nonstop…very bubbly and playful. She loves to watch tv and she learns a lot from Barney and Dora the explorer. She can sing songs and she can dance to the beat gracefully. Will I be one of the stage mothers when she is already in school? I really would love to see Alexx perform on stage someday.
Someday soon, she will not be a kid anymore…time really flies so fast.
